It's so weird. yesterday felt like a new beginning. Kind of ironic with the date and such. After that whole depressing note & everything, I went to sleep & woke up in the morning and was alright. not happy - but alright. i went with my mommy to some doctor because i'm a good girl & felt bad because she was going alone then after all that crap went home and it was only like 113O -_- so then at like 12 ; i was like "dad - i need an outfit for tonight." & he's all oh you got money and i'm like yeah, my BROTHER gave me money even though he don't got money like you and blah blah blah (trying to be slick. btw; didn't work. -_-) then he took me and i got this outfit, i really didn't like it, but by the end of the night, i thought it was so cute. (: blah whatever; at like 4 i went to yessy's & whatever we watched tv & blah blah blah. then i started straightening her hair & she thought i was never going to finish because he plancha doesn't work too well so i had to blow dry it. but come on, seriously? I'm a miracle worker. it came out so straight and pretty. then i did her makeup and she looked soo pretty (: then she got dressed but i didn't feel like it so whatever. at like 65O i started getting dressed and realized how big my butt looked in that damn dress! lmao ; i was like fml. we got there around 73O & went to the bathroom because it was still pretty early. took some pictures (phone cameras = ew.) -->
then after that one of yessy's friend's (frank) got there & he is one funny nigg ! omg, he was soo funny ; he swore we were stalking him & he was mad funny. him & his dance. so then the music started getting good so me & yessy were dancing and frank was there too ; and he had the hottest friend! omfggg ; i've never seen someone so sexy in my life ! so whatever ; he smiled at me and i said hey. lol so, whatever; we kept dancing and like he was really hott so then he was like behind me and yessy once so i turned around pretending like i was about to go grind on him, 'course; i was just kidding. so i went back & yessy's like NO ! and she pushed me. and then i was like looking at yessy and i was like stop! and then she told me to turn around, so i was like wtf; so i did & he's like, hi i'm mike - wanna dance? and i'm like kay suree. i turn around to yessy and i was like i'm gonnna kill youu. so whatever we dance like a mean ass mix that was never ending and then it finished i'm like yeah ; kay - i gotta peee. so i find yessy and she was mad soupedd ! & i'm like omg, it's not that serious ! so blah; we go back and keep dancing & he comes back and we dance again, and then i swear mad guys staring at me while i'm dancing, kind of ruined the mood. i didn't think it was that serious & blah . then whatever ; it started to get wack because they put all the white people music, but it was still funn. i danced my ass off ; & then we had to leave. got to yessy's & my dad was already on his way, then i got home. i was sooo exhausted ; i saw degrassi then knockedd outtt. btw ! for all those people who read this & think something else happened that night ; NOTHING happened. (:
this morning ; my phone rings, and i thought it was someone who always texts me madddd early so i was like it should be around 8, i'm not even gonna check so i went back to sleep. i wake up thinking it's like 93O - 1O the latest, and it's like 113O and i was like whooaaa latest i've slept in a long ass time. turns out it was jay that had texted me around 103O and so we talked and we ended up going to the mall. i got a hoodie and some flats then we went to her grandmas house. thats when i realized how exhausted i was; like omg. they brought me home around 5 and then i went to my tias house for a little. my cousin was like damn you look sooo tired & was like i'm exhausteddd. so then i leave and get home play a little ps3 take a shower & now i'm here. it's like 9 & i'm gonna end up going to sleep around like 93O. i'm sooo tired !
so now part i've been kind of dreading to write. . .
i think i am slipping away. & it won't happen any time soon. & you might think you can mend & fix everything; but in reality - you can't. i don't know ; it's hard because i know how you are & i know how i am & that just doesn't mix. & it's not that i don't care. i'm just tired of always stressing myself out over something that is possibly not going to happen. it's happened to me enough & i'm starting to not being able to deal with this stress. really; i'm too young for it & it shouldn't be like this. i should be enjoying myself & having fun - the same exact thing you should be doing too. & i feel as if you aren't because of me & i hate holding people back.
*como inventarme sentimientos que no han nacido y que le digo al corazon? ♥
kpce. x3
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