I HATE weekends.

I'm miserable !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UGHHHHHHHH I HATE WEEEKENDS. I HATE MY LIFE. I HATE EVERYTHING !

i'm depressed. very depressed. everything is falling apart. i hate my life. UGH

so once again, i'm stuck home on a saturday because i havent done my homework - but wtf, why are they complaining i'm passing everyclass with a b or higher so there is no reason to have titty attacks.

then i talk to this fag and he gets all pissy at me. and now everything and everyone is mad at me


GOOOOODBYEEE . I HATE MY LIFE !

kpce.

don't get up, i'll get through on my own <3

I feel way better today then I did yesterday. it was kind of hard though. I always hope for this kind of day, but when I get i'm always shocked. I really don't know why, I shouldn't allow it - but it makes me happy (=

whatever - school was okay today - even after all the inturruptions. I was glad for them (= after school went to eyebrow place walked home blah blah blah. came home I was tired tried to fall asleep - couldn't. michael called - talked for a while and now its 7:O8 and I have nothing to do.

I wish I could actually tell this thing about my day, but I can't without going into details. and telling people details is not good because then crap spreads - so I can't really say much about what happened today.

it's really cold - and i'9 hungry. I should go on the computer, but I don't wanna get the laptop - i'm too cold to move. i'm probably gonna go text someone.

Kpce <3

-Nana

I believe everything happens for a reason. . .

People change so that you can learn to let go Things go wrong so that you can learn to appreciate them when they're right
You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself
& Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

^ BULL !

I was on photobucket, my bored ass - whatever just looking, and I come to this. I though about it for a while - and at first I was like, is this supposed to cheer me up ? Am I supposed to believe this too ? So I was like wtf, whatever. So, I kept thinking about it - and I realized, maybe it's right. . . Maybe he changed so I would finally learn to let go, maybe it all went wrong so when something happens to me, and it goes right - I'll appreciate the good things. & Maybe I believed all the lies and everything else, so I'd learn nobody will ever be there - no matter how great of a friend they are. I've learned even the closest will hurt you, one way or another, you just have to choose which are worth hurting for. & Maybe, just maybe - this happened and things fell apart so something new could come along, and be better. - I'm still not happy, but someday, somehow - I will be. <3

Anywho - I'm very depressed today. & that stupid phone call didn't make anything better =/

I don't understand, you keep coming back. Please decided - it hurts too much. Sometimes I swear I can feel everything inside me crushing - with one phone call, one text, one look - I'm all over the place. Can you please make up your mind - am I in, or out of your life ? Please, just let me know. What I'd give to forget it all, and make it all stop <|3

It's funny, as much as I know I should just walk away from it all, I won't. I know I can, if I really tried, but I won't. Why do I have to be so stubborn ? I'm only left with "used to bes" and "once upon a song"

Why did I let myself believe that miracles could happen ? Because now I have to pretend that I don't really care.



Kpce ♥

-Nana

I hate my life i hate my life i hate my life ! -_-

So, snow day. hooray -_-

So last night was possibly the worst night ever !

I was so tired - like I just wanted to sleep for days, but when I was finally going to sleep, I couldn't -_- WTF. So when I finally slept, I woke up because of nightmares. I HATE HIM ! ='/ Ugh, I need to get a grip I can't let him take control of me without even doing. I need to set this all straight.

I HATE MY LIFE !

One phone call - and I'm done <|3

I'm out - I'm probably going to go cry.



Kpce ♥

-Nana

What a day.

So, I just got home from possibly the most exhausting day ever !

So, here's my day - woke up got ready, went to school. School was whatever - of course stressing because my dumbass never does what she's supposed to, but anywho - nothing really interesting happened in school. Regular GAY day.

After school, I was going to chill, but I was soo tired - I came straight home and, BOOM! niiight niiight ! (= Then I had dance at 5:3O and I wake up like at 5:1O and that's late because I have to get ready, so I rushed, but I was on time. Blah dance was EXHAUSTING ! Let me tell you, rerunning the whole damn dance from the top like 4803571394872342 times get's really tiring. And I was sore to begin with. Dude, I am not waking up as a happy camper tomorrow morning -_-

So I get home, and guess what I have to do ? A FREAKING POWERPOINT -_-
Do you know how much I hate them ?! I wanna die. But then again, I'm happy I have today, since it was due today anyway. So, I have an extra day (= I WIN !

LOL! so while on my way to dance, Por Un Segundo was playing, and I am jammin` like let me tell you - and my father was like WTF since when do you listen to this pato music. I was cracking up !

But anyway, I'll probably be back later for some more procrastination (=

Kpce ♥

-Nana <3

Mark Anthony Colon - I think you just made my day. iloveyou ♥

MARK !

since mark says my blogs are depressing i'm going to make a happy one just for him

MARK ANTHONY COLON - I LOVE YOU FOREVER <3

anywho, Mark, wtf am i supposed to write ?! do i look like a happy person to you ?! i should sing to you, it'll make you happy!

THIS IS WHAT DREAMMMMSSSS ARE MADE OF !!! (=

mark, i give up, idk how to make a happpy blog, iloveyou <3

Kpce ♥

-Nana

Girls are so stupid !

so, i have to vent. girls are soo stupid ! god. i'm an idiot - all guys should just die.

kay i feel better ! i'll be back when something interesting happens <3

kpceee ♥

-Nana

so, it's been a while. . .

it's been a few days. miraculously, I didn't forget about this thing. so i'm just going to write. whatever pops in my head.

anywho - you know what's frustrating ?
when you know what you want - but he doesn't. I don't understand, i'm trying not to let it get the best of me, but honestly sometimes its the hardest thing ever. i'm trying to be strong, trying so hard - but he keeps coming back. i'd be just fine if he'd just stay away. but then at the same time i'm happy he keeps coming back. he makes it so hard though, it's not easy, but hopefully it's all worth it in the end. enough about that, it depresses me.

so, it's freaking COLD ! i'm always cold, but now it's like OMG ! it needs to be summer like NOW. I need it to be july 5th so I can just go to colombia ! I need to get out and have a vacation. this weather depresses me.

I wanna dye my hair again. the black is like fading - and its like brownish - I was BLACK so I can be fiercee ! xD

so I have confirmation class today at 3 -_- it's not that I mind going, its just that we don't do much & it's annoying. I WANT A MAKEOVER ! lol, i'm watching americas next top model and they're on the makeover episode, so yeah. lmao.

anywho ! so song stuck in my head ? mad by neyo. dumbtrick got an addicting ass song ! and por un segundo - I freaking LOVE that song.

"por un segundo enfrento mi duelo ya no estas con migo <3"

i'm out - gonna go get ready . i'll be back sooner or later

kpce <3

-nana

First day .

So I decided to start this blog ishh. Seemed pretty cool, so I thought, hey why not ? I'll probably forget about it in a day or two anyways (=

So where do I start ? I have plenty to write - my life is a bigger mess that it has ever been. Well, I'll start happy. I got my guitar last night. I love it - it's so pretty <3 style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">"You bruised my heart
Nothing's broken it's just done
of having careless complications,
teaching itself to become numb
It's afraid to feel
'Cause what it once thought was real
Was a false note prettied w/designs.
They were all just white lies."

I love them ! Or this one -

"So live your life and do what you got to.
It's only at night when I really miss you.
But the morning comes -
bringing a new day and everything seems to start over again."

That one is better (= It just fits, so perfectly ! I don't know - I just relate so much to it. I think I could live off quotes - which is depressing. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I'm annoyed/happy/mad/excited/& miserable. Jesus! I need to do something. Well, I'm out - probably go eat.

Song stuck in my head ? There's a few - "Get Back" - Demi Lovato ; "Walk Away" - Paula Deanda ; "It's Not Over" - Secondhand Serenade <3

kpce <3





- Nana <3