if its true, you can see it with your eyes, even in the dark

what can i say? its just crazy, real crazy...

heres to everything, coming down to nothing.
heres to silence, that cuts me to the core.

i really wish i had something to say, i really do..
like i know i initiated the whole thing, but i really didn't think that you would let it happen.. i thought i knew you better, i thought we'd work things out, but things happen for a reason and i don't know what the reason is, but hopefully it's a good reason. at this point, i don't know how to feel. all i wanna do is be with you, but i just feel like it just isn't our time right now. i wish it was, i wish nothing more than the world that it would work out between us, and it sucks that it can't happen, but i just don't know what else to do..

its becoming something that's impossible to ignore, & i can't take it..

i'm not gonna sit here & pretend it doesn't hurt, but i'm also not gonna sit here and cry all the time.. you let me go, so it's time for me to go. although i'll never leave. none of this even makes sense.. i just can't.

it just sucks. it really does.

9O2O8♥

some people want diamond rings, some just want everything, but everything means nothing if i ain't got you. <3

2yrs8mnths & still strong ♥

i guess it's been a while but things are better than ever right now.
did i ever tell you how much i love you?
i love you more than words can describe, more than anything i know how to explain.

you leave me breathless, you're everything good in my life. <3

you're the one. i know you are. i know it in my heart. you're everything i've ever wanted and you're all mine.

i know we've a rough week, but my baby is back.
my baby is back, the man i fell in love with since day 1.

what would i do without you?
you make me better; you bring out the best in me.

I really don't even know how to explain the way i feel for you, there really is no explanation.
you're the one. period. no if ands or but's.

you know you're the one where we could do absolutely nothing and stay home, and still have a perfect day. <3

love is...
me & you. :-*

forever & ever babe ♥

my boyfriend/husband/bestfriend
my one & only.

i know i kept this one short, but i'm tired. lol

iloveyou<3

A Day to Remember

Siiiiiiigh*

What can I even say about today, other than amazing?

There's really no other words to explain the way I'm feeling right now.
Its just like a sense of completeness.
I was happy before, but now everythings just where I want them to be. Perfect.

Even though I'm sick & you're mean :p
Today was perfect.
I can't even begin to explain how much today meant to me.
Like it's the start of everything.

We're perfect ;)
No, but seriously, this is insane.
Like everything we've always wanted, now we have it.

Today was a fairytale<3

I really don't even know how to explain how happy I am.
Like, nothing can ruin this day.

I can't even think straight.
Got my goodnight kiss tonight<3

I. T. A. L. Y
I'll truly always love you<3

we belong together, and you know that I'm right.

lalalalalaaaaa :D
can't stop smiling.
most amazing feeling in this world<3

I havent wrote to you in a long time, well since valentines day
but everything has been pretty good since then.

then today i get the most amazing news<3

& saturday is going to be such a memorable day, i can't wait.
i know its probably going to be awkward and nerve wrecking, but still one step forward.

i knew everything was going to be okay, and i told you it would happen.
i told you :)

if everything goes good this weekend, then everything is going to be so perfect<3
like, i just can't wait, i know everything is going to be perfect.

i love you<3

you make me soooo mad sometimes, but then you make me soo happy all the time.
it doesn't make any sense, but i understand myself.
no matter what happens, youre the only one there<3
all the time. :)

even though you piss me off -_-
i love you and will continue to do so, forever<3

like, im soo all over the place, i dont even know what to do with myself
like, im happy, nervous.
i keep smiling, im like really cheesy :D

& you keep asking me why, like seriously its obvious.

anyways! ahhhh, i don't know, i'm just so happy :D
I just wanna hug you :D

anyways; i don't know what to write, i'm all over the place.

I love you♥
90208<3

meet me halfway ?

x/3

If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back one day. . . ♥


I've been staring at this screen for quite some time now . . . but I'm so speechless. 
Speechless, hurt, tired, angry, but mostly disappointed. I haven't stopped shaking, or having that heart breaking feeling. It's like I can literally feel my heart breaking . . . How is a person supposed to heal from this? How is a person supposed to feel after this? I have this nasty empty feeling, this feeling that nothing can fill. This feeling of constantly being afraid, afraid of what's going to happen next. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. I have no idea. 


What hurts the most though, is the fact that you aren't trying. I know for a fact that if I were to walk out of your life right now, you wouldn't chase after me & that makes me wonder what I really mean to you. 


Don't lose someone you love over your pride. 


I've learned a lot though, and no matter what happens from here; thank you. You taught me a lot & I'm sure you'll continue teaching me. 


I'm confused, tell me; where did I go wrong? 


"You had to change up the game.
The weather is not the same.
Now there's only cloudy days."


Why do we hurt each other? 
Why do we push love away? 


When I'm gone just carry on don't mourn, rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice. 
Just know that I'm looking down at you smiling & I didn't feel a thing. So baby, don't feel my pain. Just smile back. 


I'm literally shaking, so hard. But, I'm not going to cry. I told myself I wouldn't, and so far I've been doing a pretty good job. 
So, I'm going to keep it that way. 
Over & over I tried, & over & over I cried. . . 
But I won't do it anymore.


You love me like you say you do, then take it upon yourself to keep me.

try sleeping with a broken heart.

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
http://www.elyricsworld.com/try_sleeping_with_a_broken_heart_lyrics_alicia_keys.html
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

Between you & I

"I want you to know that I am fine here w/ out you. But I can't get myself to lie to you. & since we're being honest I feel I should tell you; I've been filling up the empty space between you & I"

x/3

You should've known better

Just remember, I'm not the one to blame anymore.

fml.

guess I'm not good w/ words.

:/

I've got some issues that nobody can see, & all of these emotions are pouring out of me. . .

feeling some type of way today . . .

& it sucks, but I know I have every right to be feeling the way I am.
I know exactly why I feel the way I feel, but something keeps telling me to forget about it; it'll get better.
I hate having doubts, but I really can't help it.

"its more of the illusion of love that you're in love with. more like you guys are so comfortable and used to each other that you don't wanna let each other go. aside from the fact that you've been together for so long."



I don't even know what to think.
I really don't want to feel this way, and I don't even want to be thinking that way.
But it sucks when I'm not the only one who notices these things.

& it's not even about other people, but i hate when you promise me that things are going to be different, but then all of a sudden, they go right back to what i hate the most.

"i still hear you saying you love me, when i close my eyes.♥"

it's not like i'm saying anything is going to change by writing this.
i'm just venting because it's the only thing left for me to do.
it's really frustrating for me, and i can't help but get the way I do.

you know I love you to death & I'd do absolutely anything for you
& I'm not trying to change you, because I fell in love with you and I don't want you to change.
I want US to change.
I want our relationship to move on from this unnecessary phase.
because this is starting to become way past ridiculous.
All I want, is to find a happy medium.
& I know we're gonna argue.
I'm not that naive to think it's never going to happen and to think everything is going to be picture perfect.
but am i really asking for too much just to be happy?
just to stop the unnecessary arguing.
if i'm in a bad mood, is it really too much to ask for to cheer me up?
is that not what you said you'd do.

what happened to my superman

I'm going to stop here before i start crying my eyes out.
Just know that I love you & I always will & I will never give up on us. ♥

it's been a while. . .

you and i were different . we came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love ♥


I'm done for now. 


kpce. 

-_-

I. HATE. MY. LIFE

Kpce