Today, I will be happier than a bird with a french fry. ♥

Sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren't ever what you hoped they'd be. Not ever. For Anybody. The only thing that separated one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way. ♥

Diqueee iceskating. smh. lmao.
Ended up bowling w/ the plastics. It was fun.
Shakin' mahh headdd. lmao! <3
I love them. ♥

Behind every b e a u t i f u l thing, there's some kind of p a i n. - BobDylan ♥

I kind of hoped I saw you today, I just want to know how you're holding up.
I know I can just hit you up, but I'm scared.
I don't want things to go further, even though things aren't like that for me anymore.
I don't want you to think you can keep playing with me, because those days are long over.
It was weird though, I did want to see you.
At least see how you would react.
Pero bueno, I had fun tonight.

You are every r e a s o n, every h o p e, & every d r e a m I've ever had. No matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the g r e a t e s t day of my life. ♥

Summer, I can't wait. ♥

I love you. ♥

When I say it, I want it to be more than words. I want it to be . . . perfect. ♥

Today was such an ugh! day. Had it's ups & downs.

Went back to the orthodontist, got my retainer. -____-
I'd rather have my braces.

Got home.
Kevin came over, then Michael. ♥
Jay came too. (:
After that Rosemary came and we made sammiches.
We're eating before everyone got here, then Giggles is all like "I'm outside"
So we're like crap! so we're like stuffing our faces, and it was just mad funny.
So we go to the garage & whatever.
Everyone else got there.
Then Gabe pissed me off, so he's out & now I'm missing someone.
It was kind of funny, to see the reactions of others I mean.
Like, after everything I was just like anyways; continue - I'll dance w/ you Vanna.
I don't know; everyone was prety shocked - including myself.
I knew it was bound to happen though.
Whatever, I'll get over it although I'm pretty pissed.

We practiced & it was an okay practice.
I mean it could've been better, but overall it was okay.
We jammed a little - then Maggie had me trying on my dress.
Everyone left, and my parents pissed me off - nothing new.
Vanna drew for me. ♥

I told bestfriend. ♥
It wasn't serious, but it's important for me to tell him.
A bit awkward, but I do think he's happy for me & if he isn't he'll understand.

The start of something new. ♥

I'm off this now, I had a long day.

Kpce. <3

No Es Normal Si Tu No Estas Con Migo. ♥

"I know this is going to be really cliche but for the first time I really believe that you could possibly be the right girl I need & deserve. <3"

My night has been made, I swear.

That's all for now, I'm going to have a late night convo. ♥

Kpce. <3

Sin Tetas No Hay Paraiso. ♥

My novela. (:

Anywho, I had to come back and vent.
Jay came over, and we had chinos. ♥
We talked & I missed it.
I love her. <3

Then Kevin came over. (:
& Jay was here, it was a tad awkward, but overall; okay. <3
We were here for a while, whatever then Kevin left and me and Jay stayed and we talked a little.
I tried to get out of dance, but my brother played me so I went to dance.

I freaking hate being there, I swear.
& then that dance is so freaking stupid and unorganized.
She needs to learn how to teach, I swear.
I could've done a better job. -___-
Then she jad me doing something all stupid, and I was getting mad.
Then, it was 9:OO; time to go! and she wasn't letting us out.
I was so frustrated! Ugh, so she let us out at 9:15.
I was pissed, I swear. So, I get into the car all heated.
My mom gets all heated too.
We get home and then my mom out of nowhere was all like "Si va ser la fiesta como la va ser usted, entonces yo no voy a ir."
& I'm all like, wtf; "entonces no valla"
& she's all like ay no Nana, you're doing it all ugly and blah blah blah.
& I'm like; Ma, it's my party. It's my day. I want it the way I want it.
It's not fair that I have to have it you're way, I want to do it my way.
& Now she's all walking in telling me to get off the computer.
She need to hopp off my dick, I swear.
I'm so frustrated and mad.
I just wanna shower. -___-


My moms sitting next to me just pissing me off.
Asking me if someone's pretty.
Hello! Do you not have eyes. Wtf.
Do you not see I don't want to talk to you!

Now I'm going to watch my novela, take a nice shower, and listen to some Aventura. ♥

kpce.

Mi Amor Es Grande. ♥

I'm really sad I didn't get to blog yesterday. =/

Let's recap. I stayed over Natasha's house and whatever.
We did like nothing in the morning, pero it was iight.
Tia made the banginest food, I swear. <3
Then, we did choreography for my sweet.
I actually really like it.
It's simple, but mad cute. ♥

I left & I was supposed to go to dance, but I went to the gym instead.
I reallllly didn't feel like going, so I took it mad easy.
My contacts were bothering me so much, I really couldn't see.
So, my mom was getting mad at me because I kept complaining and blah blah blah.
& I was all like, "Stop tal tal talkin' that blahh blahh blahhhh!"
She got mad. :D
She kept asking me about the necklace. ♥
I didn't tell her though. I'm not ready.
I know she won't care, she'll probably even be happy,
but she'll be mad annoying about it.
& I'm not ready for that.
Then she bought me chicken nuggets. ♥
So much for going to the gym. Hahah.

Got home and did like nothing.
Well, I read. ♥
& Kevin was acting reallly gay. Lmao.
I started singing, and mommy told me to shutup.
I was mad depressed.
My singing is mad beautiful. ♥ Lol.
My brother was acting dumb, and it was really funny.
Then he fell asleep and I was texting for a little, then he fell asleep too.
So, I was mad depressed, so I tried to sleep.
I was in and out of sleep all night, my thoughts were everywhere.
For once, it was in a good way. ♥

So now you see why I'm scared. I can't open up my heart w/ out a care. But here I go, it's what I feel & for the first time in my life I know that it's for real. ♥

If this is love, please don't break me. I'm giving up so just catch me. ♥

That song has definitely grown on me. I really like it. ♥

So, today I woke up and went to the orthodontist. I am now brace-less. :D 

It feels kind of funny, kind of fake. 

My smile. ♥ 

Jay's here now. (: 

So I'll be back later.

kpce. ♥

My Whole Life Has Changed. ♥

Skills baby. (: <3
I'm mad G. Doing my cousins makeup at midnight.
No lives much ?

For the way you changed  my plans, for being the perfect distraction.For the way that you took the idea that I had and made me see there was something missing. ♥

I have my mom's lips. fml. Lmao.

I was looking through old pictures, & I don't think I'm going to cut my hair anymore.
My hair was beautiful, I want it to look like that again. <3

I got plans to put my hands in places I've never seen. (; - I'm jammin`

* I just want to take it nice & slow . ♥

LMFAO!
*me doing kissy face.
*Natasha trying.
me: No Sabe?
Natasha: (mad serious) No!
LMFAO!

You've got me smiling in my sleep.

Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me.

See this heart won't settle down. Like a child running scared from a clown

I'm terrified of what you do. My stomach hurts just when I look you.

Run far away, so I can breathe. Even though you're far from suffocating me.

I can't set my hopes too high because every hello ends w/ a goodbye. ♥

I had the perfect thing to blog about, but it suddenly escaped me. =/
Que frio, I swear. I was meant to live in the hot somewhere.
me+cold=a no no.

What do I blog about! Omg, I never get this stuck. -__-

Lalala, my life is amazing. (:
I remember what I was going to blog about last night.
I was reading all my old posts, and God I was so damn depressed.
Like, wtf was my problem? I was depressed for the stupidest reason.
I want to delete those, start over, start fresh.
But at the same time, it reminds me of a place I never want to go back again.
A place I'll gladly stay away from.
It got me really upset, I can't believe people actually had to deal w/ me.
I wouldn't. I would've been like stfu already.
You're beat over someone who doesn't care.
Get over yourself.
I'm so glad i finally did. I swear. I was so stupid.
I can't believe how blind you made me.

My eyes are open again.

I know what it's like to breathe again.

I know what it's like live again. ♥

 It exists, it does. ♥

This blog took me the longest, and it was mad pointless. I'm off this now. 

Kpce. ♥ 

Plastic Sabotage. ♥

 

I love my Plastics. ♥

Today was the most worthwhile Monday I've ever had in my life. <3

Javy: "best.Monday.Of.My.Life!" 

Hahaha, we win. ♥ 

That's definitely the best picture of the night, well on my camera.

Yovanna's hair came out amazing. ♥ It was gorgeous & Sam's makeup - gorgeous. (: 

Javy's hair, hmm we're working on it. xD

Who would've known Yovanna could do makeup? My makeup came out so pretty. I was so proud of her. <3

I wish we actually would've went out. Lol.

Saturday, we got this. xD ♥ 

Hahaha, these people are growing on to me, I ♥ them. <3

Lovers & Friends. ♥

My SOD today was definitely "Never Knew I Needed" - NeYo. ♥

"You're something I'd never choose, but at the same time something I don't want to lose & never want to be without ever again." ♥

So, I was thinking about it & I came up w/ I don't care anymore. I used to think it was awkward, something I couldn't go through with. Something I just couldn't see myself doing. But after my dream last night, I'm scared that it's really going to happen and that is something I do not want, ever. I would feel like straight up crap. So now I know, I'm into this. I know I want to try & I know I'm putting my all into it. I know it may not seem like it sometimes, but I promise you I am. ♥

It's mad effing cold, I swear. It was so hot earlier, and now I'm like shaking. 

Hahaha, this blog actually looks pretty. (:
I put some effort into it. I win. ♥

I'm off this now, I will be back tomorrow, hopefully w/ a pretty post again. <3

kpce. ♥

Remembering Sunday

I really do love that song <3

Anywho, my posts have been halfassed and my page is starting to look gross.

I'm going to put more time into this because it's something I actually look forward too. <3

I'll start later tonight, promise. (:

Kpce

Forever and Always.

<3

I have been writing this blog for like a day now. I don't have anything to write.

Valentines day <3

I've never been one to love, or hate valetines day. It's just always been a regular day seeing PDA and blahblahblah. Btw; this blog is gonna be a little backwards.

So two years ago on valentines day; was a great day for me. I won't forget it. It was just one of those special days. Although it doesn't mean much to me anymore, I still remember that day.
Last year was a bitter sweet kind of valentine. I got what I wanted throughtout the day but by this time I was pissed. I had gotten played which was nothing new w/ you. But whatever I got over it. Still a very memorable day.
This year, is def. going to be a day I remember.

I got my book <3
* you were right, I love you forever <3
It was just a great day over all. I had fun. (:
Lalala I don't wanna go into details because well... I just don't (;

Yesterday now. :D
Was so much fun. I swear if that continues it'll be hilarious and jut great <3

Can I use my DTDSL on your Ph.D. (; lmfao mad funny.

Can't wait till tomorrow. <3 I'm excited.

I'm off this. I'm exhausted.


Kpce. <3

Late night convos.

<3

Snow days are pointless but I'm not ready to go back to school, especially not for ONE day. -___-

Whatevss.

Kevin hit a soft spot today. -___- I don't think he really believes that it kind of does get to me. It really is a soft spot. But like I said before; whatevsss.

I went to ihop today, and I'm still really full. I should probably be sleeping but I like tired but not tired. I'm like realllly uncomfortable. I'm like hot but cold and my hairs in my face and like im just mad uncomfortable -____-; it's gonna be a longgg night.

Nightt <3

Invitala que ella va. (;

Im sore. -___-

Late night convos. <3

Now I'm going. Goodbye. (:

Te Prometo Que En Mi Mente Estaras Tu.

Today was pointless.
I didn't wanna go to school but whatever.
I wore my tech sweater and was getting gunned on but it's all good.
Effing freshmen ! I sweat I ripped him.
And ima rip him tomorrow too, just because I can.

Gym today was a killler.
Hotttie though <3
It was fun.
I kickboxed. <3

I'm exhasted. So I'm going to sleep.

Night people who don't even read this. (:

Tu amor me hace bien.

Todayyyy. <3

Was just fun. Ill keep details to myself. (;


Goodnight. <3

Every breath you take when you're sitting next to me . . .

will bring life into my deepest hopes. <3

Friday was mad pointless. After school hung out with some drill team geeks <3
I got in trouble because my mom was being mad annoying.
Then kevin came over and saved me (:
I got my sweater <3
Babygirl wanted me to go the movies w/ her, pero daddy said no, and I didn't really mind.
I was tired.
I was supposed to break night; failed miserably.
I was out by like12:30.

Saturday was so much fun. (:
Woke up & spent the morning w/ the little boogers. <3
then got ready & picked up micheal.
Went to buy my dress <3 ; & tried on this dress that made mad me look like a size zero again. <3
Those were the days , * sighh
I still got my dress though. (:
t/ taco bell <3
Back at my house w/ bestfriend.
We did nothing for a while t/ we started dancing.
I was going crazy. Lmao
Picked out my songs. (:
Laughed really hard.
Overall, it was an amazing day. Too much fun. <3

SuperBowl Sunday; supposed to spend it at kevins.
But its still really early.
So now i'm just gonna read. (:

Kpce. <3

Boy's II Men. ♥

we belong together, and you know that i'm right.
why do you play with my head?
why do you play with my mind?
said we'd be forever.
said it'd never die.
how could you love me and leave me and never say goodbye?
i can't sleep at night without holding you tight.
each time i try i just break down and cry.
pain in my head, i'd rather be dead spinning around and around.
although we've come to the end of the road.
still i can't let go.
it's unnatural.
you belong to me, i belong to you.
i know you really love me, you just don't realize.
you've never been there before, it's only your first time.
maybe i'll forgive you.
maybe you'll try.
we should be happy together.
forever, you and i.
can you love me again like you loved me before?
this time i want you to love me much more.
this time instead just come to my bed.
and baby, just dont let me down.♥

Can you love me again like you loved me before ?

Today. Ugh. Today was some day.

I woke up late, and from there I knew it wasn't going to be my day.

School was whatever. English was hilarious.
"who's he? Who's they !? How you know !? You ain't a primary source !"
"you just hatin' cuz you wasn't there!"
To funnny ! Pringles <3 that was so funny.

I passed my geometry test with a 100. I thought I failed it, and I got a 100. He used mine to show the class how it was supposed to be done. Yeah, I'm nice. :D

After school was funny; waited in the car with mathew for luis like 20 efffing minutes. -___-
That's when it happened. I swear I was so pissed, omg. I wanted to cry out of anger. Like I don't even understand & to have the nerve to ignore me?! Omg I flipped. But whatever I didn't wanna get lectured by luis or mathew, so I kept it in. We went to wendys <3 luis bought me food (: we sat and ate like fatties. Then we came home and mathew took the longest way home. We passed by number one school and luis was like omg ! Little boys ! LMFAO ! that was soooo hilarious. Omg.

I got home and I got pissed again. So I was really pissy and told everyone to leave me alone.
I realized I probably shouldn't have done that.

I have to get ready for dance now.

Kpce

if tomorrow you feel lonely it's okay . . . ♥

I'm hyper (:
but I have to do my hair. my life sucks. lmao.

tomorrow's uniform day. guess who isn't wearing her uniform? :D

i'm mad im like drying my hair during commercials of the real world.

I'm reallly tired. Today was a good day though (:

delayed opening; school was iiiight. nothing too interesting. I'm always put on blast though, but whatever. i dont care. after school mathew took me and jay to bk (: After that i came home and cleaned and my room actually looked neat. (: i was so proud of myself. then kevin came over. He's a jerk (: we chilled for a while. then he left. and yeah. lol. blahblahblah. went to the gym & came home and now im really tired.

so now i'm going to bed.goodnight.

Kevin (:

Writing a blog for you. I already feel it, I'm going to get stuck. -___-

Let's see, I started this at 1O:1O, Let's see what time I finish. (:

You're a jerk.
You're mean.
You're sarcastic.
You're annoying.
But I love you. ♥

Before I forget, you really aren't a good advice giver, trust me. (:

Anywho, Sunday ? We in there! (:

Okay, so I'm going to start this now.
This isn't for everyone to read;
This isn't for anyone to criticize or anything like that.
This is for Kevin, so if you aren't him, then I don't know why you even bother. (:

Think & thin.
Ups and downs.
You've seen me laugh;
You've seen me cry.
You've even seen me grow up to the girl I am now.

It's funny, you would think your elementary school friends won't be friends passed middle school & if they do, they either get really close, or very distant. Luckily, we've just become closer. Even though there are times where it feels like we aren't as close anymore, all it takes is one day and we're as close as ever, once again.

I can probably go on forever, but it's been an hour and I'm really cold, so I'll keep it at that.

You're amazing Kevin, seriously. Don't let anyone tell you differently. I love you. ♥

-Nana. (:

btw: i win, and you finally admitted it. kthnks. (:

Take my hand we'll make it I swear. ♥

whoooaaaaa livin' on a prayer!! i'm jammmin' ! <3

I gotta catch up with this blog.

I'm really sad I can't find the workout song from saved by the bell on limewire. smh.
I'm really fat; I keep eating. It's effing cold in my room & I want to play rockband. ♥

I complain too much, lmao. So, let's recap. Last post was January 18; long time ago. after that, i can't really remember much. days went fast/slow. Margie's sweet was fun, she looked so pretty. ♥ I'm getting my braces off soon, and my sweet is officially on May 28. (: Everything's been pretty good, except for the fact I have a stalker, mind you he's really really realllllly annoying. He doesn't even like try to be discreet, he's just really out there and annoying. fml. lol

there's nothing left to say, don't waste another day, just stay with my tonight & everything will be okay. if it's alright with you, then it's alright with me. baby let's take this time let's make new memories. ♥

My mom's being reallllly annoying. Like she's odee pisssy. For no damn reason. anywho. I'm procrastinating maddd hard, i'm supposed to be writing blog about kevin. (:

Teeen Mom. Ryan deserves to get shot, i swear. Macy deserves so much better. if any guy ever did that to me, omg; i swearrr. I would flippppp. he really does get me mad. and Tylers too cute for catelynn. and Farrah should just grow up. and amber is so annoying and she complains too much. i'm really mad i'm flipping out. lol, i'm a loser. ♥

everyone's all like "oh, formspring starts so much drama!" not me, because people don't know i exist. yay (: that means drama is officially over for me. woohoo. I'm actually in a really good mood. except for the fact i'm mad cold.

i want someone to love me for who i am. i want someone to need me, is that so bad? Nick Jonas ♥


LMFAO! my brother know's the commerical to dear john. like i'm not even exaggerating. he knows the WHOLE thing. LMFAO! i love my brother. he cracks me up. (:

i have to take my makeup off. my eyeliner came out really pretty today. i was happy.
it took me like 10 minutes though. smh. lol.

these little auto corrects with the little red squigglies are really bothering me. i don't know how to take it off though.

Bentley is the cutest ♥ Ryan's hot too, but he's such a jerk. Smh.

GTL; all dayyy everyydayy babby ♥

I'm so effing random, wtf. this blog went from me being fat, to me having a stalker, to teen mom, to jersey shore. i'm slow. xD

ugh; i guess i'll post this now & start kevin's blog.

kpceee. ♥