Ugh.

I'm so behind on homework. =/

anyways; i just read your blog & thanks. really. it doesnt change the fact that what i did was wrong, but really thanks. & you're not the only one, i can't focus either & it's been about a week. things haven't changed. i don't feel better about myself. i actually feel worse. but thanks for forgiving me, i will love you forever too. you still mean the world to me. & i really hope everything goes back to the way it used to & we're still as cool as we were. ♥

I feel horrible on how this ended. i really didn't want it to be that way. i hope you read this & you probably wont. Honestly, it hit me harder than it should've. i thought it'd be better for you & i'd be okay. but no, i mean i will be okay & as long as you're better off, i'm fine. it just hit me hard, & i miss you. but i can't change it. I can't be selfish & just do what i want to do. you need to have some sort of decision on what you want to do. i know you don't want to do it, but you have to. i understand completely; i don't want to hurt you.

i don't know what to do with my life. i think i should just give up on boys & just focus on school. this puts way to much pressure on me.

kpce.

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