i miss you.

i'm writing bc i really need to vent. i've been missing you a lot lately, tons. and i hate it. i hate missing you, i hate having to think about you i hate that i can't do anything without it somehow reminding me of you. you're doing you, and i'm doing me, but idk, lately i've really been missing the "us" i don't need anyone to be happy, but i really do miss you and i really do wish you were around. it sucks that no matter what we've been through, i still imagine my future with you. a part of me says that you do too, but another part of me wonders what if you don't? what if i'm waiting for something that's never going to happen? i don't know. its frustrating. i wasn't feeling like this until recently. "i'm really gonna miss you picking fights & me falling for it, screaming that i'm right." guess i've just been feeling some type of way, and this is just my way of venting.