I'm missing you like crazy. <3

I miss you & everything we had. But I have to stop blaming it on myself. I know I did all I could to keep it alive, but you had the last decision. It was you that brought this upon both of us. Not me. I did what I could & now I'm over it. I don't wanna hear that your down or whatever because this is all your fault. It was you who thought you could leave and come back when you pleased, well guess what. I'm over it & I'm done for good. I finally realized I'm so much better without you. All you ever did was make me hurt. I'm not gonna lie, we had a lot of great times & those memories will fade sooner or later. But over all. I thank you. For everything you put me through. Although in the end it was not worth it; I learned so much. So many things that I know now because of you. You taught me so much, good & bad. Like you say, *it is what it is. Eff it. Even though you probably won't read this, I still have some hope that you do. I'm done and over with everything I just felt like letting out what I've felt like for the past few weeks.

Anyways. Last night was weird. But whatever. I was so tired I knocked out like at 1 then I just woke up like at 11 and Im still mad tired. It feels like a Sunday. Idk why. It's weird. I wanna do something today ! But blah. Yesterday the little booger loved me ! & today she slamming the door on me. I'm mad depressed !!! =\ she be playing me. Well whatever. I'm gonna eat. Be back when I feel like it.


Kpce. <3