Tuesday, August 28, 2012
i miss you.
i'm writing bc i really need to vent.
i've been missing you a lot lately, tons.
and i hate it.
i hate missing you, i hate having to think about you
i hate that i can't do anything without it somehow reminding me of you.
you're doing you, and i'm doing me,
but idk, lately i've really been missing the "us"
i don't need anyone to be happy,
but i really do miss you and i really do wish you were around.
it sucks that no matter what we've been through,
i still imagine my future with you.
a part of me says that you do too,
but another part of me wonders what if you don't?
what if i'm waiting for something that's never going to happen?
i don't know.
its frustrating.
i wasn't feeling like this until recently.
"i'm really gonna miss you picking fights
& me falling for it, screaming that i'm right."
guess i've just been feeling some type of way,
and this is just my way of venting.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Take me with you..
I'd give my all to have just one more night with you. I'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine. 'cause I can't go on living in the memory of our song..
Where do I start? I miss you. So much. And I have to stop lying to myself pretending that I don't. Bc I know damn well that my life isn't the same without you. And I'm not sure if I like the way my life is without you. You make me a better person. Nobody will ever make me wanna better myself like you do. When I'm around you, my heart grows. When I'm without you, I don't care about anything. I don't wanna be that person. I literally just don't see the purpose to anything. And I know it sounds crazy, but maybe that's why I can't let you go. I can go on with my life and do whatever it is I have to do, but there's just no getting over you. I hate admitting this. I hate showing my weak side, but I just can't hold it anymore. And the thoughts that go through my mind when I think about you drive me insane. So, idk if you're gonna read this or not, but either way, I don't really know why I wrote this. I guess it's just the fact that I need to get it out. & this is just the only way I can do it. So yeah, I miss you & I hope all is well with you. I hope you're taking care of yourself and I just really hope you don't forget about me, bc I'll never forget about you.
I'm done for now.
Where do I start? I miss you. So much. And I have to stop lying to myself pretending that I don't. Bc I know damn well that my life isn't the same without you. And I'm not sure if I like the way my life is without you. You make me a better person. Nobody will ever make me wanna better myself like you do. When I'm around you, my heart grows. When I'm without you, I don't care about anything. I don't wanna be that person. I literally just don't see the purpose to anything. And I know it sounds crazy, but maybe that's why I can't let you go. I can go on with my life and do whatever it is I have to do, but there's just no getting over you. I hate admitting this. I hate showing my weak side, but I just can't hold it anymore. And the thoughts that go through my mind when I think about you drive me insane. So, idk if you're gonna read this or not, but either way, I don't really know why I wrote this. I guess it's just the fact that I need to get it out. & this is just the only way I can do it. So yeah, I miss you & I hope all is well with you. I hope you're taking care of yourself and I just really hope you don't forget about me, bc I'll never forget about you.
I'm done for now.