:/

I've got some issues that nobody can see, & all of these emotions are pouring out of me. . .

feeling some type of way today . . .

& it sucks, but I know I have every right to be feeling the way I am.
I know exactly why I feel the way I feel, but something keeps telling me to forget about it; it'll get better.
I hate having doubts, but I really can't help it.

"its more of the illusion of love that you're in love with. more like you guys are so comfortable and used to each other that you don't wanna let each other go. aside from the fact that you've been together for so long."



I don't even know what to think.
I really don't want to feel this way, and I don't even want to be thinking that way.
But it sucks when I'm not the only one who notices these things.

& it's not even about other people, but i hate when you promise me that things are going to be different, but then all of a sudden, they go right back to what i hate the most.

"i still hear you saying you love me, when i close my eyes.♥"

it's not like i'm saying anything is going to change by writing this.
i'm just venting because it's the only thing left for me to do.
it's really frustrating for me, and i can't help but get the way I do.

you know I love you to death & I'd do absolutely anything for you
& I'm not trying to change you, because I fell in love with you and I don't want you to change.
I want US to change.
I want our relationship to move on from this unnecessary phase.
because this is starting to become way past ridiculous.
All I want, is to find a happy medium.
& I know we're gonna argue.
I'm not that naive to think it's never going to happen and to think everything is going to be picture perfect.
but am i really asking for too much just to be happy?
just to stop the unnecessary arguing.
if i'm in a bad mood, is it really too much to ask for to cheer me up?
is that not what you said you'd do.

what happened to my superman

I'm going to stop here before i start crying my eyes out.
Just know that I love you & I always will & I will never give up on us. ♥