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i hate just waiting for you to say something to me.

i hate you being mad at me, and me not knowing what to do.

i hate that i always cry and can't stop.

i hate that i can't do anything to make this better.

i hate that i don't even know anymore.

looks like another night with a wet pillliow.

pce.

ughhhhhhhhhh

if you seeek amy ;)


i wanna stay home and cry allllllll day. but i have dance. so it's gonna have to wait until 830.

so goodbye.

i'm sorry.

babe ; honestly i'm sorry.

like forreal - i don't want to lose you because of something this stupid. i know you're upset and i completely know why. and me of all people should've known you would get upset over something like this. guess i wasn't thinking. & i know you know about everything that happened, and i know you do. guess you would get mad because well i would too.

guess i always do something wrong.

i'm sorry =/

i hope you forgive me .


gonna go cry now. goodbye.

nevershoutnever!

i'm exhausted , but i had a monster & a reese's so BING !

BUT - monsters are bad for me ! so i'm not allowed to drink it anymore ! >.<

no matter what they do; i will stay true - only to you ♥

i got squishies ! lmaoo

my tummmy hurts & i have to clean and people don't like to answer me on aim.
*COUGH !
- ass jerk . =b

i wishh i could sit on my rooof =/
i haven't done that in so long - rawr !

i'm cold, but at the same time i'm hott. idk what to do ! lol

i have to clean - & im tireddd & i want my phone back ! WTF.

truthhh be toldd i misss youuuu <3

being with you, is so dysfunctional. i know i shouldn't miss you; but i can't let you go ♥

don't believe me - i'll proveee it . =b

lalallalalala - idk what to blogg aboutttt ! OH!

Hope is nowhere

read it and it's like depressing. if you have no hope; what's there to look forward too ? what will you be trying to accomplish ? what's the purpose of anything if you have no hope, no faith - nothing. Now that i think about it ; when i was younger & would go to dance - if we ever said "never" or "can't" as in we couldn't do it or anything - she made us to push ups. i can see why now - if you don't believe in yourself, who is going to believe in you ? all you truly have in the end is yourself - & if you're not there for yourself, or have no hope what's going to happen to you ? you're your only hope ♥

Hope is now here.

See how different one can interpret things. Hope is nowhere ; Hope is now here. Same thing ; just depends on how you choose to read it . Believe in yourself & i promise it'll pay back (= See why you can "nevershoutnever!" ? (=

WAYYYY off topic ; but i have to write this before i forget.

me : so i added michelle on myspace, she swear she cute !
tasha : who's michelle ? our black cousin ?
me : LOL !
tasha : omg that's what i've been telling you, her pictures ! have you seen her boyfriend ?
me : omg yes ; he's gross.
tasha : he looks like dominico; the guy from tila tequila.
me : LOL !

^ hilarious ; but i guess you really wouldn't get it unless you knew my cousin. xD

so today, 9th period - i was reading this like poem thing and i really liked it. but i can't find it - so i'm gonna have to wait for it >.< & then whatever - i saw my grade blah blah blah . and then these mexicans sitting next to me were doing their usual - tagging and crap. so this one guy comes up to me : kid : what does this look like to you ? (hands over paper) me : hmmm . . . a shoe . kid & friends : LOL ! wtf, where do you get a shoe from ?! me : idk - it looks like a shoe. someone else : it looks like a dog. me : NO ! it looks like a shoe ! kid's friends : it does kind of look like a dog, but a shoe ?! kid : its a person blowing a piece of bubble gum. everyone, but me : OH ! i see it now . me : nope; still looks like a shoe. kid : dude, what is wrong with your creativity/imagination. ^ i'm sad something's wrong with me. lmao same thing happened with this robot thing. i thought it was a laser xD i see things in a totally different perspective ! (= well whatever ! i'll be backkk laterr ! kpceee. nanayo.! (=

=/

bad moood ; i don't know anymore.

i was going through my photobucket, i was so tan =/


^ i miss it =/

today sucked and there's not much more too it. i'm not in control of anything anymore, and i hate it.

ugh !

i just realized, i only write in this if i'm really happy - or depressed
right now, i'm depressed.

i don't even want to go into details.

nothing ever goes my way.

whatever.

pce

dead & gone.

right now i'm painting my nails, and they look gross.

i'm in a pretty horrible mood. i don't know why.
something just does not feel right.
maybe i'm just over thinking things.

Call me a name;
Kill me with words;
Forget about me,
It's what I deserve
<|3

i hate days like this.

just take me away. ♥


gooooooodbye

but baby, anywhere is away for me ♥

POKEMON HEAD !

i'm on the phone with my best friend.
and no i don't miss you
and yes i can't stand you
and i'm glad you're going to pr and i'm not going to see you !

JKAY ! iloveyou bestfriend ! (= <3

drop the girl ! i'm jammin` !
what on demand does to my music ! lol, it's mad catchy. i woke up to that this morning, meaning that song's going to be in my head all day. lol (=

i'm getting a little tired of your broken promises promises looking at your pager seeing different numbers and numbers! lol what you know about that 3lw ?! lol i'm jammin` !


this time we're not giving up, let's make it last forever ; ♥

anywho ! even though this whole situation sucks; i really don't care. Like I mean I do care, but like we're dealing with it; and so far, it's okay. i mean it sucks - but i have a feeling, it's all going to be okay (=

anyways; i don't think you understand how happy you make me. even though you get mad at me for LITTLE things, you still make me happy, and i don't think you know how much. well, you make me happy. and i hope you really know that; and process it (=

honestly, I never thought i'd feel this way, & i'm not going to lie, i'm a little scared, but i'm glad it's all with you <3

anyway; i'm out !

kpce.

nanayo.! (= <3

what happened ?!

in a blink of a damn eye, everyone stopped caring.

crying myself to sleep.

gooobye.

I am restless, and I keep trembling ♥

Yo !

So, it's like gorgeous day outside, and guess what ?!

I'M STUCK INSIDE DOING A PROJECT ! oh joy !

but, at least im not alone. alex and ray are here, and we have like nothing done - because we're watching 1OOO ways to die (=

today was whatever. I'm happy, but I just don't understand. You say you want me to be happy, but when it comes to actually being happy, you like act the way you do. But, whatever ! I'm not gonna lie, i'm not in the greatest mood. but i'll live.


going to try and do this powerpoint.


kpce.

nanayo.! (=