I can't let you go

I just got out the shower & I'm bored.

Babys working & he's busy so I'm like trying to find something to do.
I was doing homework, then I finished.
I read for a while, but then I got bored.
Now I just showered & I'm sitting on my bed in a towel thinking of what to do next.

I told you babe, I don't talk to anyone else, so I'm just waiting for you.
All the time <3

So now, I'm sitting here writing waiting for you to get unbusy, so you can talk to me (:

My world revolves around you, it's so hard for me to breathe <3

I swear, I've eaten the most skittles the past few days & my brother ate like more than half the bag. It's like never ending!

I need to get dressed, I'm cold.

Babe! I miss you.
I hate when you're busy at work.
I know you're working.
But I'm selfish & impatient.
I just want you for me.

Blahblahblah! I need a life!
Okay, I'm gonna get dressed now. . .

I'm dressed (:
What to write about....

You're gonna love me tonight (:
I'm writing just for you
It's gonna be nice & long because I'm awake & have nothing better to do while I wait for you.

I think I wanna color
I sound like a baby, but I really wanna color.

I really like what you've done to me I can't really explain it; I'm so into you<3

I'm going next door to do claras hair, but I'll be back (:

I'm back (: like an hour later, but I'm back. & you're still working -_-

Baby, you deserve the world & that's what I'm going to give you.
I'm gonna do whatever it takes to keep us both happy, I promise you baby.
You mean so much to me, I don't even know how to explain.
All I want is you<3

I can't wait till Christmas.
I feel like it's going to be the most amazing Christmas ever.
& new years<3
What's better than getting that first kiss once it hits 12?
Nothing, I can't wait.
It's gonna be amazing.
Gonna be the best holiday <3

I'm gonna keep writing to you, because you're still at work.
& you know I'm better at writing, then speaking, so this is how I'll express myself to you (:

It's crazy because I don't even know how to explain how I feel.
Not in writing, or in speaking.
But I promise you that I'll show you.
I promise you I'll show you what it feels like to have someone love you forever because that's exactly what I'm going to do.
I promise you I'm going to make all of our dreams come true baby.
I promise <3
Matter fact, I PINKY promise<3

There's no one above you, I love you<3

I will never, ever get tired of telling you that, I swear.

& I just can't think of anything else I'd rather do then to hear you say, say my name the way you do baby when we do our thing. My sexy love <3
Keep me sprung, keep me running back to you. Oh, I love making love to you. See baby boy you know you're my sexy love<3

Baby one thing is certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the guys don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million guys around but I don't see no one but you <3
boy, you're so one in a million
You are<3
baby you're the best I ever had
& I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No, there ain't nothing better than this<3
All that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means you're the only one for me
You're so one in a million<3

What would I do w/ out you?
Like, seriously.
You're amazing<3

I love you beyond the reason why.

Lalalaaaaaa I'm so impatient!
I want you to get outta work already.
I want you all to myself!
Just me, forever.
I'm greedy

You can say I'm trippin' but I'm stingy & I can't hide it.
Wanna keep you all to me I'm selfish, why try to fight it?
You're the only one, w/ the only love that's strong enough to claim me
So please forgive me I'm just stingy, but how can you blame me<3

never been the one to cling & I don't like to be needed, but now I guess that's all changed <3

You made me believe in love baby.
You made me see that someone could love me, unconditionally.
You made me who I am now.

Baby you've seen me grow up pretty much
You've been there for everything
& you will continue being there.
I know you will.

Nothing turns me on more than being with you baby (;

Okay, I'm done for now (:

I looooovee you !

Love,
You're future wife<3

quien te ama como yo?

So sad all my writing just go erased :(
Time to restart ....

(: it's been a few days.
I didn't even finish about my thanksgiving ah.

It's been quite an amazing week though :)

Let's see, my thanksgiving was amazing :)
My mom spoke to babes *awkward, but okay :)
Friday, Jay stayed over & babe bought me skittles
& got me a rose<3
Babys the best I swear.
You're so cute (:

Saturday was a freaking mission.
You pissed me off because you were being so damn complicated for no reason -_-
But whatever.
We went mini golfing. & idc what anyone says, I beat you. :D
You suck, I win. :)

We went to sonics after & you got a nasty sunscreen tasting slushie that I drank anyway. Lol

I had a great day on Saturday.
Baby you're crazy.
I'm crazy.
We're crazy. Omg.

Now I was writing about how I was playing paper toss & remembering my freshmen year. How we would play paper toss in my art class & you would walk me to english all sweaty & nasty. & then you would walk me home. Always taking the long way. Having some really good times & some blah times. When we were mad at each other I would always pick at leaves. But when we were good we'd fight to step on the crunchy leaves <3

Everything was soo different back thing. I don't think we both realized how long this would last. How serious this relationship would become. But now we're both serious about each other & we both know how much we need each other. you're the first guy ever that my family knows you're my boyfriend. Not just a little friend or anything, my BOYFRIEND <3 my one & only. One day they'll know how much you mean to me & how much I really mean to you. One day they'll understand. But until then, let's prove them wrong baby. Let's prove everyone wrong. Let's show them that we can make it. We will make it, I promise you baby <3

Now you're showering & stuff & although this post isn't as good as the one that got deleted, its okay.

You're freaking amazing baby & I will never get tired of telling you that.

I love you, forever
90208 <3

Thanksgiving (:

I had the besttt thanksgiving ever (:

Spent it with the people I love the most<3

& best of all, spent it w/ babe <3
couldn't have been any better.

I know I told you I'd write, but I'm soooo tired.

I'll finish in the morning.

I love you husband <3.

I love you

& all of the things that you do

I told you I was gonna write to you tonight, so here I am. (:

I'm on my iPod, so it's kind of annoying, but anything for you baby.

So, I'm home. In bed cuddling w/ scooby waiting for daddy to get out of work & home so he could call us until we fall asleep. So in the meantime, we'll be writing. You have no idea that I'm writing this, but I'll tell you before you go to bed so you can read it (:

I was angry today. & you know why. It just gets me so mad how I can't see you. You have no idea how upsetting it is. All I want to do is spend my time w/ you & I'm sorry I can't always make that possible. I know it isn't entirely my fault, I still feel really guilty & I know you always tell me not to; idk I still do. I don't know how to explain why I feel so guilty when o know it's not my fault but then again it is all my fault. Ah, idk.

We went to the city yesterday.
Why are you so cute?
It was fun & I love you.
& then we had a little fight, but not anything we can't handle.
I'm glad we did though, if it wasn't for that we wouldve never had the talk we did.
I think we both needed it.
Both needed to let it all out & that's exactly what we did
Even though we froze it was worth it.
It definitely brought us a lot closer together, I feel it.
I loved being wrapped around you like that. Just talking. Just letting it all out. Absolutely loved it <3
& baby you're crazy. If it wasn't for those circumstances I wouldve left w/ you & had the best night of my life. One day baby, one day.

"I can't forget your kiss, the venom on your lips"

Baby you need to get out of work :(
I miss you baby
I miss you tons <3

I just wanna spend everyday with you
I wanna wake up & see your beautiful face first thing every morning
Fall asleep every night you holding me the way I like it.
Your arms around me w/ my back on your chest.

I love you soooo much.
You really don't know baby.

I'm beat & I'll admit it again.
I don't care what anyone thinks.
This is OUR relationship, & ours only.

Our first kiss <3
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 <3
all because of some chapstick
What wouldve happened w/ out that chapstick ?
First time you asked me out<3
Tuesday, September 2, 2008<3
in my backyard straight out of band.
9:12pm
Remember that day like it was yesterday
First time I cut dance for you<3
Monday, April 26, 2010
Best day, I swear.
I remember that day so well.
Everything I ever wanted.
Pinky promise<3
"two years & you're mine"
Never, ever forget those words
First time<3
Friday, May 7, 2010
Unforgettable day; there's no need to explain why that day is so special.
First time we saw each other after about a month.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010 & Wednesday, August 25, 2010<3
After such a long time, coming back together.
Two AMAZING days<3

There's many, many more but I'll leave it at that.
You're almost out of work & I'm getting sleepy.

iloveyou husband<3
JnC 90208

love is . . .

Forever ‎​♡

Babe is eating & showering while I'm here in bed all lonely :(
I wish you were here, cuddling w/ me and whispering in my ear & just holding me.
I miss you already.
BUT, I got to see you today<3

Wasn't for long, but its okay; you love me ‎​♡
Even w/ my "booogies" :p
I loooove you ‎​♡

I'm sleeeeeepy!
But I promised I'd stay up for you
Even though I told you to hurry up, I know its gonna take forever
Time always goes by so slow when you're not talking to me.

Babe! I'm so sad :(
My brother just got home -_-
What a waste of space.
I'm mad now

But; its okay, we'll get through it.
I'm so sleepy; I miss you.
I love you, have I told you that?
Of course I have, I can't seem to tell you enough.
I don't want you to ever forget, ever, so that's why I always tell you.

Baby, I loooove making you crazy
Loveee it; & it better be only me.
ONLY me, forever.
I don't care what happens, I don't care about anything;
You're MINE ‎​♡
All MINE every part of you.

You're out the shower & stuff now; so I'll stop this here.


I love my husband ‎​♡ 90208

babe:

my baby<3

i don't know why, but i feel like writing to you today.
i don't know if i should tell you, or just let you read it on your own, idk but we'll see.

anyways; where to begin w/ you?

i know i've told you this a million times, but one more time won't hurt.
i love you ♥ 
& i know it's hard, and i know it sucks, and i know we have our amazing ups and out terrible downs,
but it's all going to be worth it, i promise you.

it's like i have soo much to say, so much to tell you, but when it comes to putting it into words,
i can't explain.
you leave me speechless ♥

you have no idea how much i miss you when youre gone.
you have no idea how much youre on my mind.
you have no idea how much you really mean to me.
you have no idea how much youre the only person i need in this world.

yeah, i'm beat; i'll admit it
but, i don't care that i am.
i have what i want & thats you baby
& as long as you want me too, i'll be by your side.

if you want me to stay, i'll never leave♥

i'm writing this to you, because youre at work & youre kind of busy and since youre the only person i talk to (promise♥) i'll write this to you.

i know when we have are arguments and fights, they can get bad; you & i both know that.
but we always pull through because i can't let you go, and i know you can't either.
i love how much i know you & how much you know me.
i love how comfortable i am around you, and how comfortable you are around me.
i love how no matter what happens, and no matter all the b/s we have to go through, youre still the only one right by my side.

i know everythings not perfect between us, but nothing is perfect.
& i'd rather have bad days w/ you then happy days w/ anyone else.

no matter what we go through, i know it's just gonna make us stronger
& i know we're gonna make it.
i know it from the bottom of my heart.

i'm really tired & my eyes are closing so i'll stop this now, but just so you know; i could keep going forever♥

i love you my little turtle head husband♥
JnC♥9O2O8