not a million fights can make me hate you ♥

hi !
my name is joe !
i got a house !
3 kids and 1 spouse !

ahh, i need to shutup - i'm so tired.

& tomorrow is a fap day. GAY

i have a feeling i'm not going to make me happy. make my day ? (=


i'm too tired to write. i need to find time for this thing.

kpce.

nanayo.!

from what i've heard, with skin you'll win ♥

tired.
exhausted.
i stink.
i'm gonna shower.

but before i leave. I love my life <3

kpceee

nana yo.! (=

never let go ♥

"tell me that you love me, and it'll be alright.
are you thinking of me?
just come to me tonight.
i know i need you, just like you need me.
can't stop, won't stop. i must be dreaming ♥"

"i need to find my way back to the start.
when we were in love, things were better than they are.
let me back, into your arms ♥"

"love is a luxury - i'd rather be in love than dead ♥"

"i am on my own, but it's nice to see you come along.
it's nice to see you came along, and this might sound wrong,
but i can only tell you through a song.
and i will take my time, because it's the only thing on my side.
and this can't be real.
tell me, do you ever feel ?
i've been changing and you're still waiting on me.
please wait for me.
never let go ♥"

^ I love "The Maine" amazing band. (=

so, i was in biology today, looked at the time and it was 11:12. so i texted babe because, well i thought about him =b, and then for the rest of the day, we caught almost all of them. you know, before i used to hate catching the time at anything :12. i used to get so sad, but now, i was so happy you still remembered. it was just like aww ! idk, i thought you had forgot & maybe i was the only that didn't want to let go, but i guess not. <3

so this one ! decides to be like super late to class ! and he's just like outside my class, so i'm like mister can i go to the bathroom, and he's like ignoring me! i was like umm ! hellllooo?! and then i go, and he's like "i'm the latest" lol it was so funny, and then he complains that i have to get to class on time ! hypocrite =b
divaaa is a femaleee version on a hustler ! lol, sorry (= it just like came on tv. lmfao.
but anyways. then 6th period. my french teacher stalk me, she was like outside the door, and then i couldn't walk him to class - therefore he was probably super late !
aww ! tan cute ! lol. ah, too funnny (= but anywho, i get into my class, and teacher looking at me, like odee hard. like umm . don't speak go away.

then i had a bad end of the day, and then i didn't even like walk home and then i was sad, but then i got home & took a monster nap (= i was so happy. and then i woke up. did nothing. did some more nothingness, and now here i am ! lmao, dito i'm so bored its ew. & i'm tired too. i really do think i have a problem. i sleep too much. but no one cares ! BECAUSE. i do what i want ! (=

"so tonight, let's fade away.
forget it all for just one day.
tonight oh baby we'll fade away.
this is our time ♥"

i need to stop listening to these people ! but i love them (=
ew tomorrow's friday. and then the weekend. i hate weekends. it's always so freaking complicated and gay. i never get to do what i want, and when i do, i have to sneak it. grrr.
ayy ughh grrr rawrr ! (=



anywho. goooodbyeee <3

kpce.

nana yo.! ♥

early summer, it's playing on repeat ♥

i was born, to tell you iloveyou ♥ (=

So, that song has been in my head all day, and I am listening to it now. I get happy.

GUESS WHO'S IN A GOOOOD MOOOD ?!

-You win, ME ! lol.

so right now, it's 9:12, and apparently that's a good thing, right babe ? (=

today was such a good day. well, after school anyways. went to the park with jay, alex, and babe <3
it was fun, trying to make me jump off the swing. you must be stupid ! (= "you iiight ?!" lmao, why you so funny ?! ahh ! i love my lifee ! (= then he feeeed me & i get happy (= but then my heart was in my ass, was so terrified ! like you don't understand. like omg.

but that's not the point, i'm so happy right now ! goood day, i wish everyday could be like this. it doesn't even matter where we are, as long as i'm with you i'm happy <3

months going strong now, and no goodbye.
unconditional, unoriginal, always by my side.
meant to be together, meant for no one but each other.
*you love me, i love you harder ♥

^ I loveee hey monday ! that song has been in my head, for like EVER ! i write it everywhere !

well, back to my day. then i got home, then jay left. then me and alex started doing homework. & surprisingly, we got a lot done. a lot more than i actually expected. i'm so proud of myself (=

but anywho, we dropped off alex, and my dad started pissing me off ! i can't say anything ! he be rippin me for everything ! got home, & mami wanted me to dye her hair. so i decided to be nice and say sure. i did it, and we were talking & my mother is soo funny when she's not being annoying. we were laughing and disgusting hideous people, and we were "bonding" per say. lol

babe ! i just remembered. STOP BITING YOUR NAILS ! (=

anywho, i'm done for now.

kpce ♥

Nana yo.! <3

grr !

it's been a while. i've been slackin.

i'm exhausted and i'm trying to stay awake, but i don't think it's going to work.

anywho, i'll come back tomorrow to enlighten you about my days

kpce (=

nana yo ! (=

how you love me now ♥

SOD : how you love me now - hey monday <3

You were talking to her
But messing with me
It's finally clear
You're blurring the lines
Are you disturbed?
Oh, now you care
Why do you race through my red lights?

Can't understand
I'll slow it down for you

Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how
How you love me now
Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
I hate when you say
How you love me now

Save
Save it for her
I'm not gonna hear
Your reasons and "please-just-take-me-backs"
We never were right
Don't waste your breath
You crashed and you're on your own tonight

Can't understand
I'll slow it down for you

Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how
How you love me now
Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
I hate when you say
How you love me now

Lights out
I found out
My falling star
Goodbye
The sun rises here
There's no more you and I

How can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how
How you love me now
Tell me how can you sleep?
How can you breathe?
I hate when you say
How you love me now

i've waited so long.

i've waited so long for that . . . and now that i have it - i don't know what to do.

everything was finally starting to get better, and you do this to me ? you know how i am, and this ? i don't understand. i really don't. . .

over & over I tried; over & over I cried. <|3

Goodnight, and goodbye ♥

i'm not a princess, this isn't a fairytale <3

So, I haven't wrote since Sunday, and it's Wednesday. I really don't know why I haven't. Hadn't really had the time, or mind to write.

For the first time in a long time, I gave myself a good cry. To tell you the truth, I don't know if it was because of what I heard, or what. I guess it kind of had something to do with what i heard. I try to erase you, and you just come back some way or another. I still miss you <|3 - I'm just learning to deal with it, because I guess I have too. I have no choice anymore. I'm not going to walk around as if it's affecting me, because there's no point to that. Why walk around miserable, when i could be just as happy ? I don't know, if what I heard was/is true I don't know what's going to happen. I'll be happy if it does, but I don't think I'll have the strength to go through it again.

How is it, that I got called by the name of the person I dislike the most. WTF is that ?! I was kind of mad, but then I left to "pee" and got happy. I don't know why, but it made my day <3

& no, I don't mind talking to you at all ♥

"I'm not a princess. This isn't a fairytale. I'm not the one you sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell. This isn't Hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. . .

because I'm not your princess. This isn't a fairytale. I'm going to find someone someday who might actually treat me well. This is a big world, that was a small town, there in my rear view mirror disappearing now. & it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now. ♥ * i

Baby sitting for the rest of the week, so who knows when I'll be back.

Kpce ♥

-Nana

give us life again, 'cause we just want to be whole<3

Sunday and I'm in the worst mood ever. i don't know what it is, but it's days like this where i wish none of it would've happened. ever.

it's over, and they're just memories. but take you're memories, they don't mean much to me anymore <|3

i don't know what to do with my life anymore !

I have like nothing to write. So, I'm out.

kpce <3

stars * <|3

i saw that stupid star today. just wish i wouldn't have.

haven't blogged in like two days. actually i've been pretty busy - for once.

so i though about it, and i don't think i can go on with it. for one, i am not completely over you, and i won't lie about it. two, i don't want to give you false hopes - more than i already have. you're super nice to me, and maybe that's not exactly what i want. i don't know - false hopes are not cool, and of all people - i would never want to do that to you. you don't deserve it, and you definitely don't deserve the way i've been treating you. for that, i am truly sorry <3*

when you see my face hope it gives you hell ♥

nothing else to blog about - i'll be back when i have something interesting to write <3

kpce

(=

i got my cup noodles and my water, and i'm good to go (=

highlight of my day : my mom pants me . LMFAO ! i'm walking to my room and i pulled her hair. then she pants me ! lmao, she played me.

So family guy is the funnies show ever ! omg, i'm like cracking up !

leona lewis' "i will be" has been in my head alll day <3

random thought - i feel like a hoe. i'm wearing a mean ass white tank top, and you can see my bra like perfectly xD i'm such a hoe (=


how can people be so childish ?! i mean, i'm out of your life already, no need to go the extra damn mile. aren't you supposed to be the "man" the older one ?! the one that knows what to do ?! what you did was soo immature, like it was ridiculous . i'm already out of your life, and as you can see, i am NOT stalking you. if i was stalking you, don't you think you would've noticed already. if you haven't noticed, i'm doing fine without you. actually i'm doing better than fine, now that i'm out of you're life, everything is working out. there was no need for you to do that. that was honestly the most childish thing you've done, other than getting upset for me confronting you. ugh, you piss me off soo much, i don't even know anymore. whatever, i had to vent. i still don't understand how someone can do something so damn childish, but i guess that's just the type of person you are and will always be. and I honestly, don't need that. ♥

if you're so pissed at the world, why show it ? just makes you look like a dumbass, and i know from experience. i understand people get angry, but like sometimes, they like express it to a point, where it's like wtf - you act like only bad things happen to you. there has to be something good. either way, you can't show you're angry or hurt. makes you seem weak, and seeming weak is a sign people might step all over you. regardless, you can't let people see you're weak side as if it's the only side you have. feeel me ? sometimes lying to yourself and hiding it, can actually help believe it or not. after so long of pretending to be happy, of fake smiles and fake laughs. eventually in one way or another, they start becoming real. also if other people believe you're happy, you'll soon begin to believe it too. believing yourself is the first step to complete and uttermost happiness. <3

i'm out for the night ♥

kpce

it will all eventually turn to just memories <3

* You let go and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

snow day. yipeee -_-
what i'd do today ? nothing ! like every other snow day !

So, i've been like addicted to jesse maccartney for the day -_- what a dork, lol.

* i don't want another pretty face, i don't want just anyone to hold. i don't want my love to go to waste, i want you and your beautiful soul. you're the one i want to chase. you're the one i want to hold. i won't let another minute go to waste. i want you and you're beautiful soul ♥

it's so addicting, it's annoying, -_-

ugh ! i'm so mad. i had the perfect thing to blog about, but now i can't remember . . .

2O min later . . .

this wasn't what i was going to blog about, but it will have to do. . .

so have you ever had somene who is crazy over you ? and you want to like them, you really do - but it just doesn't happen ? like you're so hurt from past experiences, and you think you'd never be able to like/love again just because someone came and with a stupid smile, and stupid lies won you over then screwed you over ? so the person that's crazy over you, you know his past, and maybe he's not the person you were hoping for but he's always been there for you. even while you were hurting. even while all you could do is think about that person that broke your heart. him just there holding you, being there for you, just wishing it was him you were thinking about . it sucks, just because if you liked him it'd be perfect. and you think to yourself, maybe it will happen over time. time passes, days months weeks. . . and you try, but nothing happens. so you think maybe if you give it a chance, sparks will turn into flame. but nothing, so what do you do ? maybe it's just not meant to be. maybe he'd treat you the way you've always wanted to be treated. maybe he does anything for you. maybe he'd do anything to be your everything, but he's just not. so what's better ? lying and getting what you want. or telling the truth and hurt someone who's always been there for you ? none of it seems right, you just wish you can return the feelings, since it's the least you can do. either way you won't be completely happy, so now what ? ♥

you might need time, to think it over. but i'm just fine - moving forward ♥

kpce

longest/shortest weekend ever !

if that made ANY sense. i've been awake basically this whole weekend - and i ALWAYS sleep on weekends. it's so depressing. i'm odee tired and have ALOT of homework and studying to do. oh wells ! longest/shortest weekend - went by MAD fast, felt like i did a lot.

saturday - i was running around the school for drill team meet. we pop champagne OHHH ! lmfao, ah, good times ! too funny. well was there for long ass time ! was mad tired when i got home, took like 6 naps before i actually fell asleep. lmao, it was funny. and today went to youth fest. it really wasn't that bad. met the funniest nuns EVER ! like you'd think they'd be mad awkward and start praying, but they had me crying ! it was soo funny xD

it's been about a year now, ain't seen or heard from you, I've been missing you crazy - how do you sleep ? ♥

so, i'm sad =/
i promised myself i wasn't going to think about you, and i was doing a pretty good job, but i slipped today =/
ever realized people will do whatever just to hear a simple "iloveyou" ? it's crazy, all people ever want is love, and they'll do anything just to hear it. they're just three simple words. instead of just saying it, show it. Love can save us all ♥
Stop looking for the same kind of people. After being hurt so many times, you'd think we learn to stay away from those kind of people, but if you think back - everyone has the same characteristics. why is that ? it's because we feel safe, we feel this is where we belong - when in reality, we need change. change is hard, but necessary. we have to set what qualities we want, and just find them.

whatever ! i'm tired. goodnight <3